Still in freakout mode

I am still freaking out about finances, but it is what it is. There is not much I can do to change it right now, so Im taking baby steps. A payment here, a payment there. Small, but effective...even though it takes forever.

I am also in love and happy about it. This boy gives me butterflies whenever I look at him. I am ready to marry this one and run away. I might be crazy, but thats where my head is. I know Im still in the happy go lucky three month phase, but after knowing this one for almost two years, Im well aware of his flaws and I still love him.

Im sick of dating. I just want to be tied down and happy to stay home in the evening and just exist.