Day Seven. Still going in a row.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


4. Boys who don't wear cologne. I dont know why. I love the smell of a good cologne.

3. People who are impolite. I hate people who don't have manners. Someone should have raised you better.

2. Boys who are afraid of commitment. I suppose this one is kinda obvious, but it needs to be stated. After dating someone and then sticking around for 3 plus years after...well, duh.

1. People who cant take charge. I like a boy who can take care of me when I need him to. Not to be overbearing, but to take charge and help me when I need it.

Day Six...surprisingly right after Day Five.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


We are keeping family (well, blood family off this list) because it would me my mom and my sisters.. and that is like a duh. So in no order at all.

5. Keri - for in the list of cousins, she is the best. And I know that if I ever end up in jail for something dumb, she is going to be the one to rescue me. And because she can always cheer me up when I am feeling blue.

4. Lacey - my oldest friend and the one I share my soul with most often. There is a strength between the two of us that I dare anyone to try and compare. We are both strong, but together, we are unstoppable.

3. Amy - for living with me and putting up with me and knowing when to back off and when I needed love.

2. Jacob - Everything else aside, he knows me better than anyone else in the world. We have fun together and now that I can admit my affections lie elsewhere, I think that we will move into the friendship we always should have had.

1. The New Boy - Because he says something that makes me adore him more everyday and because I think that he might be the last puzzle piece I've been looking for.

Day Five, in Time Warp Land.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


6. Jessica. Seriously. Who let's me make the decisions that I do?
5. Staying with Keen for as long as I did. I can't regret making the choice to be there, because of how much I learned, but I shouldnt have stayed.
4. Moved out of my house at 18 thinking that I was going to rule the world.
3. Dropping out of BW. I am too smart not to have a degree.
2. Buying my condo.. kinda. I know now that I will need to move one day, and kinda soon, and now it's going to be very very hard to do.
1. Driven past George's Kitchen on 6/19/09. It was the site of my car accident and it wouldnt have happened if I would have taken another way. The pain it has caused is not worth it in any way shape or form.

**on a lighter note, I am happier today than I have been in months. I think that my heart is remembering what it is like to be happy.**

Four

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession

So, I'll start slowly and see if I can keep this up...

**but on one note to pat myself on the back, I am down to just needing to lose 24 more lbs. I said earlier in this blog if I could lose 60 I would be exstatic.. well, I lost that and more. I'm proud of me.**

7. Do I self sabotage on purpose, or am I truly unhappy with my life.
6. Is the grass greener on the other side or do I just get bored far too easily?
5. Am I just allowed to eat ice cream for dinner?
4. That piece of my heart that you own, that I reserved for you.. I think I want it back. I need to feel whole.
3. Ow. God, do my joints hurt.
2. I kinda really want a baby. And a husband to go with it.
1. Is everyone's life so much more exciting than mine?

what doesn't kill me...

My life keeps changing in ways I dont like or understand.
Im scared and lonely and need to share.
I keep hearing, it will be fine, advancements are there..
but its only part true.

Ill never feel better than I do today, or yesterday for that matter.
It will only get worse, this cannibal inside me.
I want so many things, so many paths are left to be walked...

Who can love me now?

Eight

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession
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1. Be smart and able to hold a conversation

2. Know just how important my crazy family is to me and love them like I do.

3. Do the little things, scrape off my car, replace the filter in the heater.

4. Be affectionate. Hold my hand in public, be proud that you are with me.

5. Love and understand my love of bad movies and music. Be willing to snuggle all day to watch them with me.

6. Have a goal. I dont have to have a lot of money, but I want you to have a dream and want to go for it.

7. Kiss like you mean it and know just where to grab my hair to make me shake.

8. Be quirky. I want my Ducky.

Nine.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession

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1. I fear I'm missing out on a lot of things cause I can't force myself not to love him.

2. Smoking is a part of who I am and I think that when I quit, I will be losing a huge part of me. Plus, I really love the social aspect of it.

3. I dont have many close friends. I'm starting to feel really left out as they are all getting married and having babies.

4. Although I love losing weight, I wonder if I am really doing it for me, or only cause I think it will land me a husband.

5. I am going back to school cause Im hoping it will turn me into a grownup.

6. I have a really hard time going out when Im not with someone. Even though I know the only way to meet someone is to go out alone.

7. I am totally happy sitting at home all weekend and just watching movies, but only if I have someone to do it with.

8. I am a much happier person when Im surrounded by people. I am an extrovert and I get all my good energy from them.

9. I would love to move where it is warm, but I am scared to death of leaving everyone behind.