Day Ten. I did this, Bitches.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession

One Confession. There are so many things that I would confess when I was a little girl to the man behind the screen. Now all of those things seem so small and insignificant.

Right now it is just this. I am in love. It's the first time I have felt this since Jacob. I missed this feeling. I have no idea if it will truly work, as much as I am hoping it will. Something about him makes me feel like I'm not just floating around. Like I have an anchor. And truthfully, I'm glad to give Jacob up as that anchor. He drags me down, my love holds me in place.

Day Nine: Endings and Beginnings

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession

This week has been good. Really Really good. Like I'm kinda crazy lovey gross good. It scares me, but I havent felt this way since about 5 years ago.. and we all know how that turned out.


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And since my image search is being dumb, Lets pretend I have a picture of a court room with a thoughtful lady in it. This lady would be me and I am getting very very antsy for this case to be over.

And lets pretend the other image is of a puzzle piece that is about ready to fit. I like that a lot.

Day Eight. What do I appreciate?

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


I had a long day yesterday. I was in a little room with two lawyers reliving one of the scariest days of my life. Over and Over again. I left with a headache and feeling exhausted. I can not wait to have this all behind me. After three years, I'm done.

3. The word Love. Not as an affection, but as a pet name that someone calls me. It makes me feel special.

2. Some one who can share emotions with me. I like to know what is going on in someone's head. You dont have to let me in on everything...just some.

1. A man with a plan. I love plans, I like when someone has a plan and know what they want to do. Whether its for next weekend or long term a year from now... I love the man with a plan.

Day Seven. Still going in a row.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


4. Boys who don't wear cologne. I dont know why. I love the smell of a good cologne.

3. People who are impolite. I hate people who don't have manners. Someone should have raised you better.

2. Boys who are afraid of commitment. I suppose this one is kinda obvious, but it needs to be stated. After dating someone and then sticking around for 3 plus years after...well, duh.

1. People who cant take charge. I like a boy who can take care of me when I need him to. Not to be overbearing, but to take charge and help me when I need it.

Day Six...surprisingly right after Day Five.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


We are keeping family (well, blood family off this list) because it would me my mom and my sisters.. and that is like a duh. So in no order at all.

5. Keri - for in the list of cousins, she is the best. And I know that if I ever end up in jail for something dumb, she is going to be the one to rescue me. And because she can always cheer me up when I am feeling blue.

4. Lacey - my oldest friend and the one I share my soul with most often. There is a strength between the two of us that I dare anyone to try and compare. We are both strong, but together, we are unstoppable.

3. Amy - for living with me and putting up with me and knowing when to back off and when I needed love.

2. Jacob - Everything else aside, he knows me better than anyone else in the world. We have fun together and now that I can admit my affections lie elsewhere, I think that we will move into the friendship we always should have had.

1. The New Boy - Because he says something that makes me adore him more everyday and because I think that he might be the last puzzle piece I've been looking for.

Day Five, in Time Warp Land.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession


6. Jessica. Seriously. Who let's me make the decisions that I do?
5. Staying with Keen for as long as I did. I can't regret making the choice to be there, because of how much I learned, but I shouldnt have stayed.
4. Moved out of my house at 18 thinking that I was going to rule the world.
3. Dropping out of BW. I am too smart not to have a degree.
2. Buying my condo.. kinda. I know now that I will need to move one day, and kinda soon, and now it's going to be very very hard to do.
1. Driven past George's Kitchen on 6/19/09. It was the site of my car accident and it wouldnt have happened if I would have taken another way. The pain it has caused is not worth it in any way shape or form.

**on a lighter note, I am happier today than I have been in months. I think that my heart is remembering what it is like to be happy.**